I ♥ Apples

2011-09-05T02:39:00.003+08:00

' Happy 4th year my dear '

2011-07-10T00:55:00.000+08:00

乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影

我聆听沉寂已久的心情

清晰透明就像美丽的风景

总在回忆里才看的清

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我

我用力牵起没温度的双手

过往温柔已经被时间上锁

只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念

我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天

极光掠过天边

北风掠过想你的容颜

我把爱烧成了落叶

却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念

为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前

爱你穿越时间

两行来自秋末的眼泪

让爱渗透了地面

我要的只是你在我身边

Been holding onto something so dear to me for the past 4 years. Its never easy to give up on something or someone that really means the world to you. I've tried and am still trying though it doesn't seem to be working. It seems like i can never give you up totally. I've let go but moving on? It's a different thing.You're like a shadow, following me everywhere i go. Nevertheless, i will continue trying and hopefully, i'll be able to move on real soon.

Yours always,

Sng yi ling

2011-06-20T00:33:00.002+08:00

SHINee - Jojo

I know that

( My baby, I love you)
I gotta get over you
That’s right, that’s right
( My heart)

Look, just look at that look
She’s almost like me, saying how it’s easy to forget
I don’t want to believe it

(Oh ah) A restless night
I’m so sick of my head hurting
I get on my knees,
Hit my chest, and even if I cry,
Can something that can’t be done be done?

JoJo! When the sad music flows
I think of you (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I erase
A heartless you (Oh oh oh)

(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! What did I do wrong? I, I was blind
(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! I get trampled by both of your eyes
I, I was blind

So many nights, I wonder why
What can I do to make it right?
Everything will be all right
So JoJo, just tell me why

I don’t want to cry (Oh, ah)
My abandoned heart gets scratched deeply
I’m so sick of my head hurting

JoJo! When this bitter music stops
I want to send you away (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I, why can’t I
Erase a heartless you (Oh oh oh)

(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! What did I do wrong? I, I was blind
(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! I don’t know y-yet

Baby JoJo, do you know?
The heart here is also cold!
Baby, baby, why did you leave?
I cry and become exhausted
Waking up from a dream

JoJo! When the sad music flows
I think of you (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I erase
A heartless you (Oh oh oh)

JoJo! When this bitter music stops
I want to send you away (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I, why can’t I
Erase a heartless you (Oh oh oh)

2011-06-10T01:04:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i feel that life's tough this year.
Though i'm much happier, much healthier but regrets there are.
Not studying hard and skipping school for almost a year and a half just because of a failed relationship, causing so much unhappiness to my parents/family.
Having to catch up so much to be able to take my O's the end of this year, it's really not easy.
Plus being in a shit school with shit teachers, it's even harder.
School 6 times a week, going to the airport to study every sunday.
Gosh, never would i expect myself to be studying so hard, never.

Sometimes i really wonder,
What if i handled our break up properly? Will i still be in chung cheng? Will we still be good friends?
Lots of question marks in my head.
But one thing for sure, i know i've learnt/grew up a lot since then. I've gain lots of things too.
True friends, how much love my family really has for me, becoming less spoilt and becoming a better person.
I guess it's all worth it?

2011-05-23T21:51:00.000+08:00

Okay, so i guess i just deleted the blogs that i wrote for him the during the span of last year. My thoughts, my feelings.
A relieved i guess? Like finally, i'm able to do it :)

2011-05-16T23:54:00.001+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!
So long since i blogged! Hahaha.
My Chinese O level paper is coming and i'm SOOOOOOOOOOOO nervous because the teacher in MDIS can't teach for nuts and i'm left to fend for myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:(
But its okay! Smart me can handle it well and i have SMART friends like Tohy and that stupid pig to help me<3

Hmmmm, was so touched when i saw the post that Teresa dedicated to me. ILY BBG!!!!!!!<3
You're a super nice friend and you deserve the best! Wait and see, good things/handsome guys will come knocking your way!:)

Okay, so now i'm losing motivation to go to school because i really feel i can study better on my own but i can't waste $8000 right? So every single day, i'll have to drag my butt outta my bed and travel ALLLLLLLLLLLLL the way to queenstown to school T.T I HATE MDIS!!!!!!!!!!!!

OHYA! A new additional member to my family: BABY SHIRO!<3
A mini maltese whose birthday is on the 29th of January 2011! I swear he's ADORABLE ttm!
Can't stop myself from spazzing over him everytime someone ask me about him!

Hmmm, i'm refurnishing my room and its so pweeeettyyyyyy now in shades of pink, with a queen size princess bed and vintage floral stuffs. I heart heart heart my room now!<3
My mum recently went Korea and got LOTS of SHINee stuffs so i'm happygirl94 now!

Lastly, i'm SOOOOO VERYYYYYYYY SADDDDD that DBSK disbanded:( I love yunjae moments, i love DBSK! They are really the Legend and the love i have for them is different from SHINee. Hmmmm, just hope that once U-know and Max's contracts end with SM, they'll join JYJ and reform a new DBSK. THE RETURN OF THE KINGS!

Ooooo, and i cant wait for SHINee's Japan Replay debut! My Dubu SOOOOOOOOOOO HANDSOME/ADORABLE/ATTRACTIVE inside. Not forgetting the rest looking so damn HAWT inside!

Say hello to baby Shiro!<3

PS: I'm so glad i have true friends who i can count on now <3

Okay, just a few pictures to upload!

Look at how happy sj is while taking photot with teddy! Hahaha!

2011-03-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

Woah, it's been a month since i've posted? Haha.

It's alright!
Sngyiling is working hard now and giving her best for O's this year!:)
Been meeting my chung cheng peers EVERY SINGLE week since school reopen-ed and i'm proud to say that we haven't lost touch!:D
And they are forever so sweeeeeeeeeettttttttttt~<3
GR-ians, the basketballers, BN-ians, cousins~<3

I'm meeting them at least once a week!

Hahahaha.

So i'm like packed packed packed to the brim!:)

But i'm loving how my life is now.

Cherish what i have presently is what i'm gonna do from now on, or maybe what i've been doing.

No more dwelling on the past!:)

A little messed up photos of my life:

This cutie pie has been picking me up from school every saturday, coming all the way from pasir ris to queenstown:) I LOVE YOU TERESATOH! THANKYOU!:D

Smarty pants cousin that got into Vet!<3

Never forgetting my BN-ians :)

The GR-ians clique came to surprise me with a birthday cake '' from '' Onew at my school! SO TOUCHED!! They were expecting me to cry but TOOOOO BAD! Strong girl me wouldn't :)

My fav couzs<3!!

A few of the team~~~~ :)

MY PRIMARY SCHOOLMATES!!!!! Haha. Was so shocked when they called me at 10plus at night for supper. I miss parry :/

The MDIS clique. That's what they call themselves~ Hahahahaha!

Lastly, ending with photos of my beloved Dubu Lee Jinki Onew!!!!!!!!<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

PS: Achieved my aim of getting highest in class for my chem/physics/Amath. Emath missed by a little but don't worry! I'll continue to work harder and get my desired score for O's!

PPS: I LOVE MY PARENTS AND SISTERS FOR BEING ALWAYS SO FORGIVING TOWARDS ME AND GIVING IN TO ME CAUSE I'M THE YOUNGEST! I THANK BUDDHA FOR SUCH FAMILY MEMBERS!<3

PPPS: I really love my friends and thank you all so much for all the support you all have been giving me:

PPPPS: Praying for people in Japan to get through that horrible Earthquake and Tsunami :)

2011-02-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

I feel like a slacker when i see my GR-ians working so hard.

I NEED TO BUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's alr week 6 eh! Soon O's will be here~!
Gonna go studying even if its only me myself and i for the next few days.
Cheers!:)

2011-02-06T15:25:00.000+08:00

Gonna spam pictures that i haven't been posting. Enjoy :)

Group photos on what i've been doing, More to come~! Stay tune :)
Anyway, happy chinese new year!:) HUAT AH! HAHAHA!

2011-01-29T21:38:00.000+08:00

HECTICCCCCC WEEKKKKKKKKKKK!
TERESA & PX CAM E TO MDIS TO PICK ME TODAY AND THEY CAME TO MY HOUSE & I COOKED CURRY DON FOR THEM! FUCKING GOOD I TELL YOU!<3 HAHAHAHAHA!
MADE THE BIGGEST DECISION I'VE MADE IN LIKE MONTHS AND I HOPE I WON'T REGRET!
IM SO HIGH NOW IDK SO BEAR WITH IT! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
OHYA!
I HAVE THIS NEW HOT MODEL LIKE CLASSMATE!
SUPER FAIR & I THINK HE'S PART ANGMOH! AWESOME?
SCHOOL'S BEEN MUCH MORE INTERESTING BECAUSE I FINALLY OPENED UP AND MADE NEW FRIENDS. HAHAA!
OKAY IM OFF~~~
BYEEEEEEEEE~!

2011-01-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hello hello ~ :)
I've finally found a motivation to go school! ( A few days only though ) HAHA!
Cutie shy boy whom wears a cap to school everyday that's real good at fanciful yo-yo.
Aiyoooooooooooooooo, i like! :D
My eye candy for now! Hahahahha!

Anyway, went back to school for training with the girls. Enjoyed it a lot!:)
They better win against manjusri on monday if not they'll be out:/
Jia you!!!!!!!!!!:)
Gonna pon school to watch their match. Teehee :D

Alright, can't stay any longerrrrrrr.
Gonna cook chicken feet soup with peanut for ding dong cause she injured her knee.
Poor thing:(

2011-01-21T00:13:00.000+08:00

LOL! I just realised that Heechul's birthday is on the 10th of july!!!!!
Just something to share :) Hahaha!
Picture of a beautiful heechul for you?

If only imma guy ~ <3

2011-01-18T23:39:00.001+08:00

Kenji's surprise party :) Koped photos from lucas's blog!

Preparing the fire

X minis, this little speaker is damn good man! Haha.
Look at that gay pengbo! LOL!

Gosh, i miss them alr..........................
Can't wait for chinese new year where they are gonna come my house for gambling session! Haha.
Not forgetting my team & BN peeps :)

Anyway, school sucks! The teacher can't teach for nutts. sighhhhh.
No choiceeeeeeeeeeee.
Wasted 2 years so i have to buck up!
Gonna get my 8 points and zoooooom back to meet up with the GR peeps and celebrate, oh yes i will :)
I'm so busy right now that i'm having little time to sleep!( and for those who know me, i need at least 12hours of sleep) But now, i'm not even getting 5 hours:(
Anyone has time to sell to me?
Lol, just joking! Hahahahahahahahaha!
Alright, gonna sleep soon and have another fruitful week :)
Nights~

Lastly, i just wanna say i love love love love love love love love Onew !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<3

2011-01-17T01:05:00.000+08:00

School was horrendous.......
I guess i really have to have lots of self-discipline and urgency to really do well for my O's.
If not i'll be as wasted as those ah lians & ah bengs in MDIS.
Saturday Teresa came to crash my lecture (Y) and she finally understood what i meant by my school is shit.
Playing with phone, listening to ipod, reading, talking, leaving class halfway thru the lesson, the teacher can't even be bothered.
Worse thing is they can't teach!-.-
Okay, maybe my chem & physics teacher is better than that hippo ho and mrs cheng.
Haha.
Okay, bad things aside.
I finally met lulu on saturday because he had a surprise BBQ for kenji and kenji was so touched that we could see tears streaming in his eyes when we surprised him with a birthday cake!
Haha.
And for no reason i was thrown into the pool all thanks to lucas lim-.-
Teresa followed a little while later.
Haha.
Lu's father is really a great cook i swear!
Smoked duck breast, garlic chicken and carlsberg drunken prawn ( invented by me :D )
Yumsssss! Hahaha!
Best day of the week so far.
Gonna start a new week and im dreading it alr.
Oh wells, i reap what i sow right?
Gonna fucking do damn well for O's and leave that bloody school in 10months.
Pray for me please. Love you guys! Nighty nights :)

PS: I found out Teck Hwee is DAMN GAY!
I swear!!!!!!!! I will never ever forget the epic scene man. HAHAHA!

2011-01-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

I'm back from Taiwan!!!! Love the weather there although the food was alright. Haha.
I still have to wait for my sister to upload the photos before i can do a proper blog post but
its gonna take AWHILE i hope. Haha.
Today was the first day of school & it just feels weird not wearing school uni to school.
Oh wells, gonna chiong for 10months and leave the school with pride & glory and back to a proper school with proper uniform.
Yes, you can do it Sng yi ling because that's what you've to do for wasting 2 years.

PS: I don't know if you still read my blog but yeah, i'm stilll gonna type this out.
      I know you will be disappointed with your points but hey, you've worked so hard so don't feel sad or
      disheartened at all. You're gonna be fine. Believe in yourself. Wishing you all the best in life although
      you may not wanna hear it from me.

2011-01-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

Ooooo, it's the new year alr!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) 2010 had been a better year to me than 2009 because :

0) Alex Lee, a guy who changed my life. Learnt alot from the way he treated me and i finally let go, so THREE CHEERS FOR YI LING!!!!! * CLAPS CHEER SCREAM *

1) Been real close to sqe like we've never been before and its nice to really count on her, knowing she'll be there cause she's family.

2) Getting into GR and knowing Teresa :) She's been a great friend and i do wanna get closer to her in 2011!:)

3) Knowing the group of guys in GR especially Lucas, who has been there for me since the start of the year.

4) My teammates, especially Karwai & Rena :)

5) Shi jing :)

6) Miss Mong :)

7) Lastly and definitely, MY FAMILY!<3<3<3<3<3

Without all of them, i wouldn't be where i am today. Thank you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Although 2010 wasn't a smooth sailing year for me either, i'll continue to work hard and not let my parents down anymore. May 2011 be a great year ahead for you people!:)

2010-12-27T19:29:00.000+08:00

Okay, so here's how my 23rd was spent. Picture speaks a thousand words, i shall hand it over to them then!:) Enjoyyy! ( although its very little )

Gingerbread man i made for my friends!

Dirty me right after i baked!

Teresa came and she gave me ALOT of help! THANK YOU!:)

Then the basketballers came and turned my room upside down! Haha. We did present exchanging and
the video is up on facebook. Go watch! Its funny :)
Then Sj came but i realised i didn't take photo with her!!!!!!!!!!!!:(

Okay, but she took with Teresa. Hahaha!

Then the guys from GR and BN came. Thanks for coming!!!:)

Okay, so that's a FEW pictures from the partayeeeee.
All left rather early except for Kenji Ronald Lucas and Teresa.
They stayed and played mahjiong!
Oh ya, did i mention that Ronald is SERIOUSLY damn HILARIOUS?!?
Haha. He always make my day:D:D:D:D:D
Haha. Didn't know teaching mahjiong could be so thirsty. Hahaha.
They left at around 4plus and i played mahjiong till like 10 in the morning.
Haha.
And for christmas eve, i slept all the way till night and afterwhich, i cooked pork chop marinated with white wine, boiled broccoli and potato with butter, bacon streaks, Smoked cheese sausges for dinner for my sisters and their other halves :)
Mahjiong after that till morning and i slept till night and it was overnight at sentosa for me at Hard Rock Hotel! Haha.
Am loving and living my life now to the fullest <3
Be sure to do it too peeps!
Be back for the next post, ciaos!:)

2010-12-26T20:10:00.000+08:00

Hello people! How was your christmas? Haha. Mine was spent playing mahjiong, sleeping, playing more mahjiong and more sleeping! Haha. Then today, im heading over to Sentosa's Hard Rock hotel for a one night get away with the fam!~ Got no photos cause all are with others, gotta wait ~~~
Just a little update anyway, gotta go! Ciaos!!!!!!!!!

2010-12-24T19:56:00.000+08:00

Alright, my hectic days are over. YAY !
It''s 7 now and i just woke up cause i slept at 9 in the morning just now. Haha.
Yesterday was the party and it was a success!
Thanks to all that came!!!!!!!!
Now i'm like waiting for a zillionnnnnnnnn people to upload photos so i'll be able to blog about it.
Ohoh! I wanna thank Teresa for coming so early to help me.
There you go girl, THANK YOU!:)

2010-12-21T01:48:00.001+08:00

Omg, i realised i'll be sleep deprived and be soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo busy!
Okay, so here's my schedule for the next whole week:

Tuesday: Wake up at 8 for training. After that, rush home and freshen up and town for christmas shopping.
Jurong to temple and powerhouse after that i guess. I'm gonna be fucking tired.

Wednesday: Meeting BN peeps & Remus at 11 at orchard mrt -.- Frazer's BBQ after that till idk what time.

Thursday: Up early to prepare for the party and i doubt it'll end 'early'.

Friday: It's either Teresa or going to malaysia. Either of it i'll have to wake up early-.-

Seeeeeeeeeee, i'm gonna be soooooooooooo tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
Anyone here to save me? Buddha?

Anyway, met Teresa for a failed study session today cause both of us forgot to bring the most important thing : calculator. I guess it's because we haven't been studying for a long time. Haha.

Its you

2010-12-20T02:46:00.002+08:00

I got sngqien hooked onto this song.

Love the lyrics & its the best song that suju has.

Beats sorry sorry hands down.

Be sure to watch!

2010-12-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

Today is a mundane day ~
Woke up from a call by Teresa saying she's outside my house.
Haha.
We chatted and we ( i guess a little by her? HAHA! ) cooked alfredo, yums!:)
Sent her to her fam dinner and i went home to wait for her call again to buy assessment books ( IM LIKE HER BOYF LAH ! ) HAHAHA!
Alright so now i'm home, rotting.
I guess i'm too tired today because i kept forgetting to bring things out, ez-link card, phone etc.

2010-12-16T02:50:00.001+08:00

Hello people! Back from Genting and i'm so tired! Just finished a round of mahjiong with a super bad mood.
First irriated by some guy then by my sister. Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Gonna sleep my anger away. Will post pics of my Genting trip once my sister uploads it. Nights!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: Been reading my archives and i realised we were once really happy and loved each other like alot.
Oh well, but things changed and i'm not the one for you anymore.

2010-12-14T01:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONEW LEE JINKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's Onew's birthday today!!!!!!!!!!!!! So happy i'm able to wish him while i'm in Genting, thought i wouldn't be able to use the internet. Hahahaha!

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUTIE PIE! SARANGHAE<3!!!! ~ ~ ~ ~

Okay, just a little update. Life's good here. The weather is good, so is the food, so is the company. I love my life now lots lots! Feeling appreciated and happy.
Afterall, being single isn't too bad. Haha!

2010-12-12T05:36:00.000+08:00

Hey people! I'm going to Genting in less than an hour :) Right now, Teresa, Kenji and Lucas is at my house. Haha. Went supper with them and they are at my house to chat now. Gonna say thanks to teresa and lucas ( a little ) for helping me change my blogskin!:) THANK YOU!:D

2010-12-11T05:12:00.000+08:00

I have lots to blog about and lots of pictures to post. My hongkong trip, outing with basketballers/sj/teresa/ many many more! BUT I DONT HAVE THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Going to Genting tml = more no time! LOL!
Anyway, the girls are having their competition now and being the ever supportive senior me! has been supporting them ever since their first match! However i can't make it for the next two matches cause i'll be overseas.
So juniors, GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST! THRASH THEM ALL!:D
Just think of me when you all are playing and you'll be fine alr!:)

GO FOR IT!:)

2010-12-10T02:11:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!
Yeah i know right, after SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO long and i'm finally blogging again. Haha.
Right, so i've stopped blogging for a reason but now, i've realised it's REALLY stupid to do so.
And after much persuasion by my teammates and Teresa, i've decided to start blogging again.
So people, keep the tags coming in!:)

PS: Trying to not let you learn about my life by not blogging and putting info on facebook is stupid.
       It just shows i'm not over you which for your info, i'm long over you. After what you've told me
       and how you treated me, i guess that's a full stop for me, a final point. Seeing you with her was another
       test put on me. If it was the me before, i would have cried, went up and demand an explanation
       but all i did was tell myself you're not worth it and walk away with a smile, happy to know im really over
      you. I guess i really grew up ever since we broke.
       I'm no longer who i was. I'm a better me now :) I even talked and say hi to all those bitches i used to
       hate because of you. When i say all, i really mean all, xw, nut, j. All of them. Forgive and forget and
       i'll live a happier life. I'm happy now:) Much more satisfy and appreciative of things & people around
       me.

PPS: To those who are reading this, I LOVE YOU PEOPLE! I LOVE MY FAMILY I LOVE
          MY FRIENDS! BUDDHA BLESS YOU! ( I'm a taoist!~) HAHAHA!

2010-10-19T02:47:00.000+08:00

When one's single, you'll spend lots of time with your friends and family.
But when you're attached, time all goes to your other halves.
I've been ditched by you my very own blood cousin for him and its showing isn't it?
Time you're spending with me now is like what?
Once in every few weeks?
I've been even shouted by my very own blood sister to let her spend time alone with her boyf when i only wanna hitch a car ride to the airport.
Criticized and insulted by my very own blood sister every now and then.
I'm not saying it's your fault for finding someone you love.
All i'm saying is that alex is someone whom treated me with his heart and soul before things changed and he lost his feelings.
But when he loved me, he really gave me his everything and he was VERY good to me.
I love you all but what i really want is someone whom i can really count on.
You're my cousin & my best friend.
Staying by your side and being for you is what i have to do naturally.
I don't insult morris even though i don't like him.
In fact i hate him, hate him for stealing you away.
But that's what cousins are for isn't it?
To be there for each other no matter what.
I'm a fool, yes i am.
But getting over someone i've loved for 3years and still loving now is really difficult for me.
Disappointment just leads me into being more into him and idk why.
He was the only one who made me feel appreciated for things i've done for him and he understands how horrible i feel. He was my pillar of support throughout the years when shits were happening in my family and they were nowhere to be found. All escaping from the hell at home.
I don't want to be always quarrelling with you over him.
I just want moral support like how i'm giving you even though i don't like morris.

2010-10-17T05:32:00.001+08:00

Exams are over and the results are coming back.
I'm super stressed plus super afraid.
I just hope to promote, i really do.

Dad went to Paris and now i'm sick like right after the exams.
Flu, fever, sore throat, cough, all coming at once. Fml.
Just ended my mahjiong session and i'm going to sleep.
Had fun for the past two days.
Photos soon, promise :)
Nights, sleep tight!

2010-10-07T22:01:00.001+08:00

A primary school mate of mine just sent me a facebook message and here it goes
'' Hey miss Sng miss monitress miss prefect! It's your O's this year so work hard and good luck! ''
When i told her i retained, she asked me '' What happened? The last time i saw you, you were one of the best student. ''

Memories, it all came back. How i wasted that important year of my life.
Then stress came, what if i'd really get kicked out this year?
My parents, my sisters, my cousins, my ever supportive family.
How am i ever gonna answer to them?

* 6 am in the morning * In my mind, '' i need to study, i need to study, i need to study ''
* On table lamp and started doing math on my bed *
* Fell asleep on my papers *
* Waking up to do math again *

I am this desperate to promote, this desperate to proof to people i can do it, this desperate to not let anyone down.
Most importantly, this desperate to give myself one last chance to make a better out of the life i have screwed up.

2010-10-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

Been going to the airport every single day since idk when.
It's always with teddy, if not others.
We both skipped school this two days and stayed glue to the airport from morning till night.
Tired much much much.
School's been giving me problems, my mum too.
But who cares, not like i give a fuck about what the school thinks.

PS: TEDDY HAS THIS REALLY COMFY JACKET FROM KOREA!!
I swear its damn nice:X
I WANNA GO KOREA THIS YEAR AND SWIPE OUT ALL REGARDING SHINEE'S THING!<3

2010-10-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

Not like i'm not trying my best?
Say all you want. Enough of you flaring up at me for no apparent reason.

Troops surprising loved ones.

2010-10-03T03:41:00.000+08:00

Watch this video. It's really super sad. I've never cried over a video before and this made me SOB.

It's super heart wrenching.

2010-09-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

EOY starting tomorrow and i'm so not prepared. So afraid i'll get kicked out.
God bless me * Pray hard * * Cross finger *

ps: i was so reluctant to get outta your uniform that i fell asleep in it. I missed your smell.

2010-09-23T23:16:00.002+08:00

Need You Now Lyrics

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor

Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door

Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

woah woaaah.
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

100911 - Sexy Key eating Doughnut

2010-09-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

* MELTSSSSSSSS * LOOK AT SEXXAYYYYYYYY KEY EATING DONUT AND WATCH OUT FOR JONG'S REACTION!!!! HAHAHAHA! SCANDALOUS COUPLE I LIKE!!!!:D

2010-09-14T16:04:00.001+08:00

Zzzzz. School today was a daze for me.
Early morning make me do squats when im about to throw up anytime.
After is recess, eat porridge also feel like throwing up.
Couldn't take it no more so i cabbed home and i reached home around 3?
CAN YOU BELIEVED IT!?
Never been back home so early before. Haha.
Ohya! I love student plan ttm!!!!!!!!!!
5000plus messages and yet my bill is only $38plus.
Awesome or what? My bill had always been above $150 ever since i was sec1 lah.
LOVE STUDENT PLAN!!!!!!<3

PS: I can't get enough of my ONEW<3 and i'm re-watching hello baby again!!!:)
PPS: Just got some crazy news about horsey from teddy! Gosh, i wonder if he's in the right state of mind man. HAHA! BN never changes uh? HAHA!

2010-09-14T03:05:00.000+08:00

Gonna post the photos for the ' mini ' class dinner another time.
We had steamboat at bugis and that's when the nightmare started. Lol.
After that was a study overnight date w teddy at the airport.
Haha.I'm so gonna make him love Onew too!
Reached home around 7plus and i slept till 6.
Shouldnt have woke up man.
Woke up and i started having diarrhoea and i couldnt help feeling nauseous all night.
Finally when i coouldnt take it, my mama brought me to the doctor and i was diagnosed w gastric flu-.-
Shucks.
Came home and i drank a little water to get the pills in but right after that, the vomiting starts.
Ewwwwwwwwwwwww i tell you.
I can see the food bits in my vomit ( okay, disgusting but ya ) Haha!
I've been sleeping for 15hours and idk how am i gonna go to school later on.
Lastly, one photo of my ADORABLE ONEW!<3

GOTTA SAY IM SO IN LOVE!!!!<3

2010-09-07T14:19:00.000+08:00

Okay, saturday and sunday was a happy happy day cause i met up with people whom i havent met up in awhile. Haha.

Saturday was wong coming to my house and after that i met SJ which is super impomptu.

When i met her, we were like ' eh wanna call teddy, eh wanna call kenji ? ' LOL.

That's how we had a small BN gathering. Haha!
It was damn fun! I miss laughing my lungs out and ask kenji to keep quiet cause he's always so loud.
All the making fun of each other too.
Gosh, i miss my times with them:(
Yeah anway on sunday, i met up with henry!:)
Another long lost friend. Haha!

Monday was alright, the company was great but everything else sucks-.-
All the decision i made was totally wrong man.
Actually wanna long sleeves out but didnt cause of the weather.
Who knows it suddenly changed and i was so cold that i started shivering and i couldnt study-.-
Sakae sushi. Wanted to eat the buffet but since it starts at 3 and i was starving, we went jack's place.
However, the food took so long to come that i was sure if we've went to sakae, we would have been stuffing ourselves w food alr.

Mocha frap. Wanted to order hot mocha but seeing that we're sitting outside, i ordered a mocha frap instead. However, it started raining so heavily( as stated above ).

SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Nothing was going right for me yesterday man. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

And i'm a flu now.

Great!-.-

2010-09-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

Show you people something really cute :)

CUTE RIGHT MY GINGERBREAD MAN RING!? AND MY APPLE TOTE BAG!!<3

Anyway, my friends are selling these rings and specialize tote bags at crazysorethroat.livejournal.com and they have many other nice stuffs like clothes and accessorize. Do check them out alright!?

2010-08-29T12:49:00.000+08:00

Have some many things to sayyyyyy! Hahaha.
I had a very fucked up day on tuesday.
What happened on wednesday is so random.
Jace amanda and i had some talk on virinity and being chaste and blah blah blah , super funny. Haha.
On thursday we had soccer for chinese lesson. Not bad not bad:)
AND I FREAKING HATE YOU KNOW WHO HOR ELI AND LIXIA!?
SUCHA BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!! ZZZZZZZZZZZ!
Anyway its a random post here. HAHA!

I never knew

2010-08-25T22:23:00.001+08:00

' Am i that detestable? ' , ' am i those kinda of person that people will hate at first sight? ' .
Question i've asked most of my friends this year. I really dont know what's going on.
I knew it was me, me and my fuck face that you've dislike idk from when.
It just, hurt?
I always thot i was adorable to you and you loved me.
I guess i was wrong.
Is there really something wrong w me?
I really do hope your answer will be yes and you'll at least be happy staying friends with me.

2010-08-23T20:06:00.001+08:00

SORRY FOR THE LACK OF POST CAUSE I WAS REALLY BUSY! HAHA! A LIL PHOTOS ON THE NIGHT OUT AT ECP AND OVERNIGHT AT YISHUN! CANT BELIEVE I HAD ONLY ONE SIP OF RED BULL AND I WAS SO HIGH! NO KIDDING! HAHAHAHA! IM SO LAZY TO BLOG! ENJOY THE PHOTOS! HAHA! I LOVE MY FAMILY I LOVE MY COUSIN I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<3

One PSLE Math question to ask you all : 1,3,4,9. Use all kinda methods plus, subtract, divide, times, bracket, fractions to get to the number 27 BUT NO SIN COS TAN OR SQUARE ROOT CAUSE THEY HAVE NOT LEARN IT! HAHA! This question really got me pondering and it comes from lucas who got it from some RJC student who got it from........... you know what i mean. HAHA! GOODLUCK! WILL REVEAL THE ANSWER ON MY NEXT BLOG POST! HAHA!

ps: was walking when i suddenly felt a comfort in my heart. Was really happy as i thought i was '' waking up '' but later on, it strucked me that that comfort came from looking at you a moment ago.

2010-08-23T00:45:00.002+08:00

Can't believe i'm doing this but i just did.
Asking both of them to give up at the same time with only one reason, i still love you.
What a day.
I don't wanna get retribution:(

2010-08-09T03:21:00.001+08:00

Woah, i've been so busy these few days.
The long break for us isn't helping.
But at least i have the time to recuperate. Haha.
Wlao, i lost face yesterday in front of my teammates and a group of Gan Eng Seng guys-.-
SO DAMN MALU!
Oh wellllll.
Anyway, so glad that i didnt went for today's event.
Lots of malays and there was a fight.
Lol!
Lucky i wasn't THAT tempted. HAHA!

Miss Teo: * TEXT * Why aren't you in school today?
          Me: Because i'm not patriotic. Haha.
Miss Teo: * Ignores *

HAHAHAHA! SHE IS SO CUTE!:D

People: You O level this year?
       Me: Nope, i retained.
People: HUH!?!?!?!?!?!?
        Me: yeahhhh.
People: You sure? You last time head prefect, top student?

Everytime i get this, i won't know how to reply.

2010-08-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

Please do add me on msn again !
New email: one_zero.10@hotmail.com
Do add alright? Dont wish to lose any contacts.
Thanks:)

Anyway, just a quote which i think is really true.
People change, and often they become the person they say they'll never be.
True isn't it?

2010-07-31T22:14:00.003+08:00

Hotmail and msn got hacked.
Dont respond to any mails or chats from onezero.10@hotmail.com !!!!!
Thanks!
Will create a new one real soon.

i wonder if you really have nothing to do with this?
Izzit a way of getting revenge?
Cause you knew i'll never change my password?
What happened to us?
I seriously dont understand.
Why can't you just let me keep those mails?

2010-07-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

Why can't god just let me keep those few happy memories of us?
I'm so upset now.
I wanna cry now.
However, i know it's useless.
Izzit really fated?
I don't want:(

2010-07-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

I don't like people turning into enemies because of me.

I don't like people giving me pressure.
I don't like people asking me to get together.
I don't like jealousy.
I like being myself and that's that.
I wanna live my life after what i've been thru.
I wanna be carefree, not tied down.
I wanna care about myself and no one else.
I wanna be happy.
I wanna enjoy life.
I wanna enjoy having someone to dote on me.

However by doing so, i'll be a bitch.
And by hurting people, i'll have retribution.
I don't want:(
I've had enough pain alr.
So teach me what i can do?
Care for others and make myself unhappy or care about myself and make others unhappy?
Sometimes, i would rather be a plain jane.

2010-07-25T07:48:00.002+08:00

Me: *Took my milk bottle from the kitchen*
Mother: Why buy a milk bottle out of the blue?
Me: * Rub my stomach* For my baby.
Mother: SO pissed that she rolled her eyes at me and walked off.

HA! In your face mother!
Hmmm, I seriously think my mother is going thru menopause.
I have totally no idea how can she be so snappy for SO long-.-
Can't believe I'm blogging like 7plus in the morning because of my mum-.-
I SERIOUSLY CAN'T TAKE IT!!!!

2010-07-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

Just star gazed with kenneth at my house's rooftop.
It's been so long since i've done that.
Feels good. Haha.
Finally i trained after so long.
Although the doctor only said i could train minimal minimal minimal because i told her im bored of staring at my teammates train.
Feel double good. Haha.
Received a lot of cheesy msges today. LOL.
Suddenly realised i'm still appreciated by abundant.
So why care about a guy who doesn't even want to be my friend?
I will do my best not to care anymore, i promise:)

Oh and there's one thing i really don't understand.
Why do people like to like people with a broken heart?
Isn't it easier to like someone who has their full heart to love you back whole heartedly?
Zzzzzz.
Like that person and he/she has to reject you.
Rejecting equals to retribuation next time-.-
Hate it.

2010-07-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

This year's bazaar isnt as fun as the one 2 years ago.
Anyway, thanks for coming jowilly tanyilin qien qiyang mingyang willy and kenneth:)
There's this one day, i was talking to miss mong on msn and she told me something she told her class.
'' Nothing has changed much, i'm still calling him( her now fiance) idiot but we're engaged now.
Cool isn't it? Made me decided on a lot of things:)
She damn cute, yesterday i walked past her and she was like hi yi ling and when she saw kenneth,
she went hi kenneth damn enthusiastically. Gave him the shock of his life. Hahaha.
I have a BIG bruise on my knee now cause i landed on my knee while playing the bouncing castle.
IT WAS SO FUN! Makes me seem like i dont have any childhood. Haha.
Kenneth jowilly and yilin was like insulting me the whole way-.-
I ATE ALOT YESTERDAY!!!!!1
It's like yong tofu then steamboat then durian in LESS THAN 3HOURS!?!?!?
Seriously must lose weight alot lahhhh, Haha.
This whole week suck totally, got alot of shits from my family but i had a HTHT with my dad yestersay.
So nice and i feel so loved from my parents<3!!
Been mahjiong-ing for the past 2 nights and i guess tonight we'll be playing again? Haha!
You'll be coming tonight<3!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

No longer friends.
I guess this is what you've always wanted.
I shouldn't have expected anything from you.
After all the shit you've been thru, this is nothing.
Stay strong sng yi ling.

2010-07-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

Many things have been happening this few days. We're like advancing so fast:)

Today is one month since we met and i've got that from him. So sweeeet<3!!

Haha. Meeting everyday since we knew each other.

I'm so confused now! Haha.

Everybody is asking me the same thing.

My sisters, my mother, my friends.

I should be fair to him too right?

2010-07-12T03:10:00.002+08:00

GO SPAIN!

I'M SUPPORTING YOU ALL

THE WAY!

TORRES IS THE BEST!

I LOVE YOU!

FIRST AND LAST TIME IM

WATCHING WORLD CUP

AND SUPPORTING A TEAM

SO PLEASE WIN!

HEARTS!!!

HAHAHAHA!

Goodbye

2010-07-07T23:57:00.006+08:00

To: Alex lee chin soon

Maybe this time i really have to let go of alex and move on with life.
My mind is like telling myself i have to continue loving alex cause i'm afraid of changes, afraid of people saying im unfaithful.
However, i ask myself. Who let me down first?
I really have to stop loving him as an obligation.
From that day he said those nasty stuffs to me, i have no more responsibility to love him and maintain the relationship anymore.

Today is 07/07.
Remember its our first 'date' because we went tampines mall to get angeeling's present and i remember we got scouted to go for modelling. Super funny! Lol.
The day i've been waiting for is coming.
10/07/10.
I remember telling myself we would last till this day and have a grand celebration cause the numbers are very nice and its our 3rd year.
Who would have expected this?
Not on talking terms, you not caring and acting like you don't know me.
I wonder if you even remember what we went through for the past 3years.
How we talked thru the night till 4plus in the morning and getting scolded by your parents.
From them disallowing till they had to resign to fate and till they scolded me, saying its all my fault.

From the start of 2007, we've started talking.
Till only 10th July 2007, that i accepted you.
I was so damn afraid that i would hurt you because i'm not sure i'm the faithful gal you've been looking for.
From knowing nothing about you, till knowing everything about you.
From your appearance to your character to your habits to your family to your friends, i know it all.
I was all so ready to get serious and even marry you, cause we were talking about it, after what happened in sec2.
Cause i sensed your love and i don't wanna let you down.
However, for god knows why, you started to change after January 2009.
After 2years of bliss and happiness, everything went down the drain.
Maybe you don't feel that there's any change in you but look back.
Compare the before you and the you now.
I don't blame you, it's our growing up stage and people do change.
You can say you've changed but you can't put the blame on me for your change.
Then July 2009 came the drama and we broke up and patched back countless of times.
We both knew it's useless even though we were trying our best.
May 2010 was the time when i really woke up.
Knowing that your love really isn't coming back.
I have to stand up, screwing my studies for a year and half is enough.
Ever since then, i tried not contacting you but time to time, i couldn't resist and even met up with you.
Turning to you once there's a problem, like always.
I even kept your jersey, nametag and badge cause i couldn't bear with it.
Now, July 2010, i've learnt to cherish myself and am not going back to my old path.

All the memories, all the feelings. I guess i'm the only one who's keeping them with me.
You've long forgotten about them, about me.
I guess you don't really remember how much i really loved you.
I loved you, more than you've ever known.
However, it's really time.
Time to let that ghost of you, who have been haunting me ever since last year, go.

Goodbye to the love of my secondary school life.
Alex Lee Chin Soon, my darling, my dumbdumb.
Take care of yourself and goodluck for your o's this year.
Am thankful for all the things you've done for me, the scoldings, for being my confidant, my love and many more. Thank you.
Am sorry for all the things i've done to hurt you, during sec2 and stuffs. I'm sorry.
I don't know about you but deep down in my heart, you'll have a secret corner to yourself, where i'll keep you well hidden and safe.
Have ample rest my love, i hate to see you looking so tired.
Remember, take good care of yourself.

ps: you know i'll still be loving you. xoxo.

your dumbdumb,
sng yi ling.

Lastly, i'm gonna post our song lyrics for the last time, i do hope that next time,
whenever you hear this song, you'll be reminded of me, of us.

楓周杰伦

乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明
就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边

Our best loved photo.

I guess you still remember where we took it yea?

1021.

100707.

2010-07-05T17:54:00.001+08:00

School has started and i'm still trying to get use to the waking up early part-.-
I'm cabbing everyday to school and IM SO BROKE because of that.
My friends make me look forward to school alot. Love them!:)
Saturday started w a 9plus phone call from K telling me he's outside my house. Lol!
Crapped with him till 2plus and he left for work and i left to met Qien and we did threading again!:)
And it was town after that to visit peng while she's working and brandon whose eating there.
Singapore Flyer to look for K and we helped him cause there were not enough staffs!
I SO FEEL LIKE WORKING CAUSE I WANNA EARN MY OWN MONEY:(
After his work, we bought drinks( which i so pathetically had some kid drinks-.- ) and walked a cool bridge which idk is called what. Hahaha.
Sunday busy day! BBQ--->FAMILY DINNER---->SUPPER CLUB---->DRINKING AT WEST COAST PARK---> MEETING K---->HOME !
I reached home at around 9 in the morning. Freaking tired!
Supper club wasn't fun this time round! Music suck lighting suck dance floor suck!
And my cousins drank till the seh AGAIN and i have to take care of the whole lot of them AGAIN.
This time have jiong's friends even-.-
Alright, shall let the pictures do their job!:)

FRAZER IS BACK! AND HE HAS GOT AN ACCENT! HAHAHA!

IM 'WORKING' AT THE SINGAPORE FLYER:):):):)

The brothers! DAMN CUTE! HAHA!

The middle one was mine-.-

I LOVE MY COUSIN<3!!!!!

2010-06-29T21:48:00.001+08:00

I'm surprised you're not the first one that i called after what happened.
I don't know why i'm so affected.
I'm so looking forward to school tomorrow cause you'll pick me from school after that.

2010-06-25T19:09:00.001+08:00

It had been a very busy week for me this week!
Haha.
I promise many people i'll update so here i am:)
This whole week was spend with Qien( there's no need to say:) ), Kenneth and Mingyang.
We spendt almost everyday together from the morning till night thats why im so shag now.
Zzzzzzzz.
I needa catch up on my sleep!
Haha.
We drank, we played ball, we sang K, we watched match and most importantly, we are always eating late in the night!
This whole week im only home for the most 3days. Daddy's angry:(
Haha.
Yesterday night was singing K with Qien and kenneth came to find me and we made an impromptu decision to play mahjiong with my oldest sister and her boyf and my second sister and her girlf.
Haha.
After that we two had breakfast at yan kee and he sent me to school<3
I know this post is boring so i'll promise a post filled with photos soon alright!?
Ciaos, i really needa go alr:)

2010-06-18T23:24:00.002+08:00

Okay, appointment change to tomorrow morning.
I admit, i'm afraid.......

2010-06-18T04:11:00.001+08:00

TEAM

Yesterday was a tiring day man. Didn't sleep and i left for airport to have breaskfast w my sister
and then training/match at dunman, i couldn't play.
Ohya, for those who don't know i've stopped playing ball alr not cause i don't want
but i can't.
All those days of saying i dont wanna play anymore and now i really can't.
Lol.
But after not going for training so long, i saw how eli that batch improved and i'm really damn happy:)
They really stepped up and cover my place nicely:)
Top 4 next year alright gals?
My appointment with the specialist clashed with the photo taking day-.-
Niceeee.
Now i can't even take one team photo with my batch before they leave.
Zzzzzz.
No surgery for me please?
Everybody cross your fingers !!!!
Stalkers like eli lixia kaline rae siew better tag before you all leave!
HAHA!
OH! KARWAI ALSO!:P
CROSS FINGERS!

Ps: No more team watching of NBA finals cause training in the morning.
IM SO SAD! MY KOBE BRYANT! GO LAKERS! YOU CAN DO IT! THRASH CELTICS!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

2010-06-16T16:33:00.001+08:00

Who i am? I'm Sng Yi Ling, a gal who had been loving Alex Lee Chin Soon for the past 3years.
I'm not someone that you can woo at the moment cause i'm not over my, sadly to say, ex- boyf.
I clubbed with a pair of apple earrings just so that i will be reminded that im still not over him
and im not allowed to fall for another guy.
That's my reminder.
An apple earring a day, keeps the suitors away.
Remember that sng yi ling, that's you.

2010-06-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

Went to St james yesterday with my cousins and mingyang and his friends.
It was quite fun minus the butt and waist and grind touching experience.
Saw quite a few familiar faces and while i was dancing halfway i bump into my basketball match referee-.-
So coincident right!? Haha.
Only few photos, will post in fb!

2010-06-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

I still don't know how to talk to you after what happened.
I'm still feeling damn crappy.
Can we hurry up talk to each other so we can supper together?:(

2010-06-12T01:40:00.000+08:00

Went out with Remus and BN peeps a few days ago. Much fun and i realised something about myself.

I cannot smile properly when i take pictures! So ugly:(
Haha. We did a quiz and it's so true!!!!
About our love language and study style. Haha.
The quiz says im a very touchy person which is true!
I love hugs and i like to hold anybody im walking wiith!
Haha.
And spending time together to me is more important.
So damn true lah-.-
Haha.
We ate some sucky place and we couldn't sit together!
Lousy service, sucha spoiler.
Starbucks at compass next.
We're going out again next week.
CAN'T WAIT:D

2010-06-10T01:52:00.001+08:00

Okay here i am posting about my hongkong because of that wong.

Haha. Photos first:)
A lot of me and my mum alone cause there's only 2 of us so bear with it !

Our first photo in Hongkong !

All these are my favourite snacks in HK! Especailly my YuDan( something like fishball but MUCH nice) !!

Famous dessert shop in Hk: Xu Liu Shan

Buys from 3hours of shopping? HAHA

On a cab. Day Two !

This place is called time square. Something like our Orchard.

This Pork IS TO DIE FOR MAN!!!! HAHA!

Their local Turkey sandwich. Yums!

Train ticket:)

Forget what is it called.

Our ferry ticket to and fro Macua

Welcome aboard:)

Look at their alley! So pretty:)

Building structure like the west.

Look at their Mac there. Damn cute! Haha.

Tradition Protuguese Egg Tart!

Some famous tower called i-dont-what.

Okayyy, so my days in Hongkong were just eat, sleep, shop !

Hahahaha.

The food there is damn good! Much better than singapore's.

If you notice, everytime before i take a photo of my meal, there'll be a bite gone.

Typical me:P

I remember buying bubble tea and i heard feng on the radio!

LOL! The first chinese song i hear there is that. Zzzzz.

Haha.

And i acually wanted to sneak into the casino in Macau but i spoilt my own plan cause i was laughing at the side and i think the security gaurd noticed:(

I cannot upload this Gatsby wax i bought. It's damn cute cause it's super small!

Haha. Really lazy to elaborate cause i'm damn tired now:X

Remaining photos are on Fb:)

PS: TAN ZHI SEN IS A BIG BIG BIG BIG BULLY !!!!:D

PPS: Will update about the outing with my loves and remus if he'll hurry up upload the photos! Haha.

2010-06-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

Ah wong is here and we are NOT studying. Teehee:D

2010-06-06T05:13:00.001+08:00

Okay, it's 4am now and my retarded sister and I are webcamming when she's just right above me.

Hahahahahaha.
Damn funny. And i drew a photo of us and i'm gonna show you people!

Very cute right? Haha. My best art piece okay! The big eyes one is me:D:D:D

That idiot sister say my drawing very ugly, say my neck never join to my neck !

Haha. I like talking to my close ones on facebook late night cause they are nocturnal animal like me:D

Will update next about my Hongkong trip soon!

Stay tuned:)

PS: I just made chawanmushi for my sister:)

PPS: I didn't realise i had a big bruise on my leg till i was rubbing moisturizer on it. FUCKING PAINFUL:(

2010-05-31T03:38:00.001+08:00

FLY AWAY!!!!!:):):)

Hello people ! I'm flying off a few hours time:)

Will post when i'm backkkk.

Hmmm, this time i'm leaving apple behind.
Sorry apple !
Haha.

I've learnt to live without it:)

Will say this first, thanks chris for sending me off :)

And sj, you better stay happy when i'm not around ya?

Qien, i know you'll come my blog after you're back, so HELLO LOVELY<3

To others, don't miss me!( Although i know it's a little bit difficult:D )
Till then, ciaos :)

2010-05-30T04:13:00.000+08:00

Know what? Even the way you talk has changed.
At first i still thought im the only one who thought of you that way,
but apparently not.
I'm really shocked.
I don't like the way you are talking now,
The sarcasm, the act popular, arrogant kinda way.
Maybe other people who you knew not long will like it cause they think its cool and funny.
But people who knew you since 4years ago, people who understood you well, will not.
Yes, i may smile, i may play along w you.
However, you wouldn't know that my heart was aching all along inside.
Sometimes i really wonder, what really made you change?
Izzit really me or those people around you?
Look at you, the way you're talking is exactly as D.
The same bhb-ness and the same everything!
I don't understand, really don't understand.
Why change when you were so nice last time?
Really damn fucking nice.
Even when we did what we usually do,
i felt nothing but disgust.
Why am i doing all these with a guy who is a total stranger to me
and does not care a single shit about how i'll feel after that.
Yep, you simply walked away, as always.
I dont feel hurt.
I just....................can't accept the fact.
Lots of regrets.
If only, if only, if only.
These two words kept appearing in my mind.
If only you didn't change,
if only we were still together,
if only you didn't retain and get into that fucking class of yours,
if only.............................

2010-05-29T23:19:00.002+08:00

I want to go escape.
I want to go Wild Wild Wet.
I want to picnic.
I want to go for star gazing,
I want to go to the Zoo.
I want to go to the Night Safari.
I want to go to the Botanic Garden.
I want to go to Sentosa.
I want to go many places........

Who's willing to bring me to those places?

So feel like going to flea tomorrow but i can't cause i have to keep my family accompany before i go to HongKong:(
Sorry Jace Sorry Teresa that i can't go !
Make it up to you gals another time kay!?

2010-05-28T16:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of school and the first day i went to school in one week?
Haha.
Saw the Vp blah blah blah.
Was super duper uber xian ttm after that.
Thanks to those who tried to cheer me up:)
Met qien after that and i had many first times !
I threaded my eyebrows, did mani and pedi.
Now pretty pretty already:)
Haha.

Never take my pedi and brows though. Haha.
Sang K after that and homed around 12plus.
Brandon and Qien left first.
Hmmm, my baby cussie is off to malaysia:(
Miss her like madddddd !
Actually lucas is supposed to go to taiwan today too but something happened.
CHEER UP LULU !
WE ARE LEAVING SOON TOO !
NEXT WEEK EH? ^^
Yep, im leaving for hongkong soon too.
THREE CHEERS:D

2010-05-28T16:29:00.000+08:00

Photos from lucas's chalet :

BIRTHDAY BOY !!!!!!

The look alike cousins !

Chunhei Lucas Tyson

The drinking starts :

My pretty cousin and I :)

Me and tyson

Thanks lucas-.-

This guy helped me drink a lot. Thanks pengbo:)

Pengbo Lucas Kenji

Baby brother and older sister !

Tyson's auntie shermaine !

( She thot i'm rachel. Wtf?)

2010-05-26T14:27:00.000+08:00

I called you last night when i was in trouble and alone outside. But you never answered.
I guessed you didn't know it was me.
Last time when i did that you would aoutomatically know it's me.
Izzit cause now there's someone else that will do the same as me?
Or izzit you just can't be bothered to call me back and ask what's wrong?

2010-05-26T04:45:00.001+08:00

Yeah, my fault now for everything. Great people you all are.

2010-05-25T00:47:00.003+08:00

Reasons why my daddy shouldn't let me go to HongKong.

1) Getting bad results.
2) Not going to school.
3) Sneaking out to lucas's chalet although he disapprove.
4) Talking back at him. ( ALWAYS)
5) Showing him attitude.
6) Just got a laptop and a blackberry from him.
7) Went Maldives, Taiwan, HongKong and Japan last year. Total cost 10K.
( He knew i needed a get away)
8) I'm fine now and do not need a get away but it's just for the shopping !:P

BUT.......................................................

My daddy is a nice guy:)

Conversation between me and my dad:

Me: Received his call and debating if i wanna answer cause i didn't go to school today. I have rashes though.
Dad: Why? You didn't go to school today arh?( He speaks in chinese)
Me: Cause i have rashes mah. Will get very itchy once i get warm.
Dad: Got put medicine not? ( SO NICE(: )
Me: Never, later i eat.
Dad: Heard that you going HongKong hor.( Laughing way)
Me: -----Silence------ Don't know what to say.
Dad: Never tell me on your own still ask other people( mum) come tell me hor.
Me: Hahahahahahahahaha.
Dad: Okay lah, go and rest. Bye.
Me: Bye ( still in shock )

SEE ! MY DADDY IS SO NICE! HAHA:)

2010-05-24T19:07:00.000+08:00

Blackshot or dota ?
Need to decide quick !

Ps: CHICKEN RICE TOMORROW ! YEAH :)

2010-05-23T17:40:00.000+08:00

I JUST MOP MY MUM'S PLACE ! THE WHOLE HOUSE LEH!
First time in my 16years of living i mop a floor. Hahaha.
Now enjoying my golden kiwi and watching tv:)
But there's no cable tv here:(
Went to lucas's chalet for the past 2nights till around morning.
First night was with class guys and we played idiot and it was damn funny.
Hahaha.
Second night was drinking with tyson and his friends and class guys.
Rashes again-.-
BUT i drank damn little.
Sigh.
Thank you for all your hugs people:)
Really give me lots of comfort<3

2010-05-22T18:41:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUCAS LIMMY!:)
Haha. It's your birthday today so stay haapy!
On my way to eat mother's day dinner w the whole Sng family.
Am still going to the chalet later. Don't care you!

2010-05-21T02:10:00.001+08:00

Copyrighted from underage-girl.blogspot.com.

They say "the first cut is the deepest", and I'm sorry if I have to resort to cliche and over-repeated quotes we have all heard before to emphasize on what I really mean, but these quotes wouldn't be so famous if they weren't so true.

Your first love would be nothing like the rest of your relationships. It is the first time you fall in love that you fall the deepest, because you love like you've never been hurt before. And that, in my opinion, is one of the truest forms of love.

Because in my first real relationship, I taught myself how to love unconditionally. I was new to this scene, and all I could really understand was how hard and fast he made my heart beat.
've never known heartbreak like how it knew to always find its way to me, and because I've never been hurt quite so badly, I also never knew how to protect myself.

For the longest time, I was obsessed with the fact that I was in love with somebody whom I thought was perfect for me, never once stopping to realize that perhaps I'm in love with the idea of what I'd like him to be or who I THINK he is, and not realizing who he actually was is someone I've never known, and still don't.

I was trying to hold onto someone who was already gone.
I was young, far too young and naive back then to even begin to grasp the basic concept of relationships. I just knew that I had to love him, and that I had to be with him.

When you're in a relationship like that, you don't stop to think that one day, all that was your entire world would come crashing down on your head, taking you along with it.

You'd never imagine that he would say the hurtful things to shatter your world that he eventually did one day, you'd never imagine that you were merely placed as an option all along when he was obviously your priority.

                                                               And so I got hurt.

              I was lied to, I was emotionally abused and I cried like I've never cried before.

Everyone goes through heartbreak, and sometimes you're gonna wholeheartedly trust that seemingly special someone who steals your heart but conveniently steps all over it and leaves you to bleed out all by yourself... but the most important part is knowing how to pick up the pieces and walk away.

There will always be assholes out there. But they are not the biggest problem of all.
What I'm really, really cut about is the fact that I let him do it to me. Over and over again.

I let him hurt me, because I was too eager to believe his lies, too desperate to feel wanted and loved.

There's a chance that he won't tear you up inside again, but don't use that as an excuse to throw away your dignity and self-worth and readily accept living a lie while in self-denial.

Don't let that be the reason why you forgive him after his second repeated mistake even though there was a gut feeling inside you telling you that something is very, very wrong.

I'll be completely honest with you and tell you that the only reason why I stuck with my ex-boyfriend for so long was because I was too obsessed with the idea that some day he will change for me, and I can say that I was right here waiting for him all along
They say love is unconditional, and me being the idiot that I was, happily lapped up every single ounce of bullshit that was spoon fed to me by clueless people who claimed that true love is unconditional.

And it was my first relationship - of course I thought I was truly in love.

            A relationship shouldn't be something just to HAVE, it's something to work for!!!

I remember crying myself to sleep wishing that things would get better, but they never did. Not until I took control of my own life and stopped letting a destructive relationship consume me.

SO stop bloody wallowing in self-pity and DO SOMETHING to make your life better!!!!!!!

All these happened to me before too. I'll never ever forgive you for what you did with that dance btich and my junior.
For god's sake, she's my junior. Sigh, forget it. Do not eish to say anymore cause i can't be botered anymore.
If you feel that you've done nothing wrong and walk pass me with that all so mighty look so be it.
Cause i wont even be bothered to look your way. It's just disappointment now i have for you.
Do what you please. Although you say you know you've let me down, you dont seem to repent.
You still can say those words to me and act like you've done nothing wrong.
I........................................................ really have nothing more to say.

2010-05-20T21:11:00.000+08:00

So now there's another case.
Wtf leh.
Seriously lah, mind your own business can?
Sigh.
I really pity you.
Why don't i teach you how to get a life?
First, lose some fats:)
You forced me to be mean bitch.

2010-05-18T14:31:00.000+08:00

Okay, let's start by me telling you guys a story:

X is going through a breakup with her boyfriend who have been with her for the last 3.5years.
She's going through a lot but she choose to sweep it off and have the fun that she missed.
She's meeting so many new people now, going out late at night with her cousin and WITH parent's consent.
It's one of her way of forgetting, one of the way she's enjoying her life for the first time.
Then come this teacher Y from her school who claims that she cares for this X.
Going to her profile in FB to get a photo of her PUTTING a cigarrette in her mouth and posing for a picture.
Nope she doesn't smoke and she won't, if anyone knew her well, they will know.
However that Y COPIED and PASTED that particular photo and showed it to the level mistress Z.
Of course right?
As an eduacator, as a teacher, she had too. Because she think that she's showing concern for her.
Expectedly, Z came to look for X.
They talked and Z asked a lot so being the truthful X, she didn't lie and told Z everything that happened in her family, her life.
However, this brought back many memories and hurt that she hasn't been feeling for almost 2 whole months.
Finally she broke down when she couldn't control herself.
Nice isn't it?
X been living so well and finally she's moving on but because of what Y is doing, she's stuck in the past again.
So let me ask, if Y truely concern, is that the way?
Where is the trust then?
And X already made it quite clear that she doesn't to share things with Y and not wanting Y to interfere.
X has already made her plan and moving on so well.
So why?
Why go and destroy happiness that doesn't come easily for X?

X sixteen and a sport player. She has been through much more than you people know.
If X tells my juniors not to smoke and am doing it herself. Will they listen to her?
No right?
For one, X seriously cannot stand smokers and the smell.
So why oh why will X smoke?
And as for her problem, she already have many people showing concern for her.
And she is grateful that Y is showing concern but it's a little bit too extreme dont you think?
I don't mean to be harsh but don't Y have a life? Stalking student's FB( not only mine),
going to student's blog?
I doubt that's called showing concern. That is just called being a nosey parker.
So please, keep your damn nose out of my business!

2010-05-17T01:19:00.000+08:00

I really wanna type a long long long long post that will summarize our 3.5years together but i really can't.
I'm afraid.
Memories are slowly fading away.
They weren't as vivid as how they were just months ago.
I don't quite remember what you really did for me when i was in sec1.
I guess i have to stop being selfish and let others have you and start letting myself accept others.
I cannot be forever coping within myself and not let others understand me.
I'm gonna give things a try.
I'm gonna really move on.

2010-05-11T23:37:00.001+08:00

Omg, took 2hours to decide what to wear today!
Feel so chapalang lah-.-
Met q at novena and we were suppose to watch brandon''s rugby's match but it was postponed cause of the rain. Waste my time sia-.-.-.-.-.-.-
In the end went CHJMES with the boys to drink.
Homed at 10.
IM SO FUCKING TIRED BUT I MUST WAIT TILL 12 FOR MY EU THAN SLEEP AT 1 :(:(:(:(

Just watched 16 and pregnant :X
Motherhood?

2010-05-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

2010-05-09T22:26:00.001+08:00

Am listening to feng now and typing this post. Surprisingly, i don't feel affected anymore when i hear this song ! HAHAHAHA! ^.O
Hmmm, i'm always passing by your house everytime i go to tuition ( Cause i cab :P )
I'll always be staring at it and feel like something is missing.
I remember once we both were looking out of the window with you hugging me and telling me ah b's house is there etc etc.
However today, i didn't even realise i passed by your place because i was busy replying my text and missed looking at your house.
Then it suddenly occured to me, your house is passing by me like how this relationship is.
Gradually it will drift further and further as i move on till it beome a thing of the past.
I am, moving on :)

2010-05-09T02:12:00.000+08:00

Just played 2-person mahjiong with Cat ! DAMN FUNNY I TELL YOU!
But super fun (:
Went to town earlier on and celebrated Moo's birthday.
I like him, he's a nice guy and most importantly, i know how he's feeling now:X
Hearing his story makes me feel :X:X:X:X:X:X:X:X:X
Sigh.
But they are a fun bunch of people :)

It's not you texting me every morning and asking me what im doing. It's not you whom im telling what i'm doing the whole day.
It's not you who i send my last text to before i sleep. It's not you whom i dress up for. It's not you who i receive a hug from and feel safe.
It's not you who ask me to sleep early every night. It's not you who ask me to close my curtain everytime i change.
It's just not you anymore....................................................

Remember there was once i was talking to you and i went down to look for food. I opened my cupboard to get a plate and a lizard fell out and i screamed and started crying. It was so loud that my dad who was sleeping upstairs came down and check? You were so nice then. You got so worried for me and kept shouting into the phone asking me what happened.
You sayang-ed me after that and put me to sleep. I felt so loved then.
Today, the same thing happened.
I WAS LIKE FUCKING FRIGHTENED BY THAT STUPID LIZARD.
However, there's no you anymore...............

Just some memories that came back. But i'm fine (:
It's just memories and it shall be(:

2010-05-06T22:40:00.001+08:00

DAMN SINGAPORE'S WEATHER MAN!
I've been turning on my air-con everytime i come home. SO WARM!
Today's chem paper was surprising easier than last year !
And i didn't study till today morning and thank you ting hong for teaching me! :)
Oh my, i'm so bored but yet im not studying cause of my RUAN JING TIAN!
HE'S SO SWEET AND HANDSOME!!!! I WANT :(:(:(:(:(
Haha.
Something very happy is gonna happen after mid years:D:D:D:D

Ps: Reading dear boys now and i realised what i wished that will happen between us is according to the basketball couple in the book. I've lived that dream for 3years and now it's time to come back to reality.
Pps: Now i know why i like basketball guys alr! LOL!

2010-05-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

Today chinese was so-so. Compo was ^^ ! Thanks Hannah :D
Spent the break between paper one and paper two to study the words for chinese cause i didn't study last night.
But not bad, i know how to write 8/10. TEEHEE! Haha.
Went to MI after that and picked qien from school.
And guess who i saw? ELMO LEH!
Wlao, how long has it been? We talked alot and about many stuffs when i was sec1 and 2.
Lol. Reminded me of a lot of things:X
Went to eat at upper thomson after that. Full much(:
Tomorrow E.Hist is a goner cause V.Tan SUCKKKKKK!!

2010-05-03T17:54:00.000+08:00

Why can't i go to OBS? Just because of those things? Fuck, know how rare this chance is?
You always think you're right. Ask you to ask also not willing to help.
I hate you dad, I hate you mum.

2010-05-03T02:59:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep and i'm missing my stupid cousin here:(

Hmmm, for the past few days i've been coming home only in the wee hours of the day and waking up quite early. Been going out and i didn't study much:X FEEL SO SINFUL!!!!

This girl here is going out with brandon tomorrow and she's leaving me alone:(:(:(

Haha. JUST KIDDING! Enjoy yourself kay gal? If he dare bully you tell me, i immediately fly there hump tump him. Haha. Okay, i'm going to try to sleep if i can. Goodnight world.

2010-05-02T19:57:00.001+08:00

I've been putting up with you for 2 weeks already.
Seriously, what is your fucking problem?
This is for you:

FUCK YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-05-01T03:27:00.001+08:00

I know you can reply. It's just that you chose to or not to. Tell me who in this world will take 4hours or more just to reply one text and with only a few words.
To others, your text will be filled with smileys, flirtatious words and sometimes even disgusting stuffs. To me? One word or a little more. How long haven we really chat properly like normal friends? Even when i try to pretend to be normal and talk like how we used to talk before 10/07/07, it's all to no avail.
I just want to start afresh with you.
However, you still treat me like your enemy. Im just trying to help. You say nothing to say, fine by me. But do you have to give that kinda of reply. If you dont want my care and concern, tell me. I shall stop asking how are you and everything.
Anyway you have so many other people showing concern for you and not like you bother telling me what's happening in your life. I shouldn't even have felt painful for you. Not like you care even if i shed any tears for you just knowing something happened but not to you. I feel really stupid, crying over something that isn't suppose to have any connection with me.
Go on and be with them, i have nothing more to say. Anyway you never once uphold your promise. I've lost total faith in you. I don't trust you anymore. I **** you ! I will make the thing that you won't believe i will do come true real soon. If one day you dont see or hear from me, you'll know what happened.

And it's all because of your '' let nature take its course''.

2010-04-29T21:31:00.000+08:00

Why? Why did you not tell me when sucha big thing happened?
I want to share your burden, i want to be there for you.
If we were like before, i would be the first one to know.
You will tell me anything no matter what.
I really want you to love me like how you did.
I really want time to reverse back.
I want us to be like before.
I want us to be happy, not like this.
For that, my condolences.
PS. i love you....
please?

2010-04-28T21:57:00.001+08:00

Didnt go to school today. Studied at my sister's workplace and after that we went to eat philipino food.
Look above! Everything for $12 only and it's not bad but guess what? All the dishes are pork-.-
Eat till i xian. Guess i've really changed. Never used to like trying new stuffs. Haha.
The place beside where we ate is a night club i think. When the door opened i saw people pole dancing-.-
AND YOU KNOW WHAT! PHILIPINO SINGS POKER FACE TOO LAH! DAMN DISTURBING-.-
Lucas Lim is an idiot. He's making me think so muchhhhhhh!

2010-04-27T22:06:00.002+08:00

Today is a crazy day! Was super tired in the morning but okay after that.
Had 2.4 today and i ran 12.35. Okay lah, judging that i haven't been training for almost 3months. Haha.
Ran with teck hwee but after that he and kang jie race. Damn funny lah!
I was damn tired still make me laugh.
Before 2.4 amanda and i went to DL's classroom and we played badminton with newspaper and brooms.
Super damn fun and funny! Haha.
BN will always be BN eh? Haha.
After that back to LT1 and we started playing the ''special'' chair right?
Teck hwee first victim! Haha.

Realised it's a long post and i also very lazy type alr. BYE!

DON'T BE JEALOUS LULU!:D

PS: Had an on and off stomach ache from morning.After eating my haagen daz, it came back:(:(:(:(:(::(:(:(:(:(:(

Bad night ahead i predict? Crapzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxz.

2010-04-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

I always thought i still can count on you after all, we've been through so much. However, after looking at your reaction today, it tells everything. Not like you still care how much turmoil i am going through. Not like you still care how troubled i am. You've always been my pillar of support, being there for me as and when i have troubles. Your reaction today really shocked me, truely. I held back my tears knowing that even if i'd breakdown in front of you, you wouldn't comfort and ensure me that everything will be alright. You would just stand there quietly and watch. So i held back my tears and let them shed only after you said ' i needa go to innosphere alr ' immediately after we stepped into school. You've changed, we've changed, everything have changed. I cannot no longer count on you.

Sometimes i'm really amazed how a person can change so greatly in a short span of time.
Just because of some wrong companies, some wrong friends and they've changed so much.
Why spoil our relationship cause of people who weren't important to you in the first place?
What happened to always and forever?
What happened to the dumbdumb's?
What happened to us?

Hmmm, actually i'm really alright already. I just need to slowly extract you outta my life.
I'm not crying over you anymore, it's just regrets and pity.
Why end something that was once so beautiful?

I wonder.......................

It's just like this picture.

Slowly fading into something that we can't see anymore.

2010-04-22T21:56:00.003+08:00

Today is a VERY bad day. But after talking to you i was much alright already.

Thanks lovely!

Ughhhh, but it's still damn crappy now.

Xian!

Dark gloomy day..........................................................

I think i'm starting to develope feelings for you,but, aren't we a little impossible?

2010-04-22T09:02:00.000+08:00

You're not sorry,you're not repentant at all.
You wanna play this kinda of game, i'll play with you.
Anyway i've already been made since the start of last year.
Let's watch from now.

2010-04-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

Came out with a towel wrapped around me.
Walked up to my sister's room and opened to see my sister's boyfriend right in front of me.
What a day-.-